Kinda lost again

I have my fitting on sat morning
tot it would turn out to be great cos i think i do it correct this time
but after the fitting, Minda told me my client is not happy....

And i feel so sad..
why this keep happen to me..
i think i have done my best and the gown is so pretty and nothing went wrong..
juz becos she wan it wider so i have to chage again
i feel so sad, so i told ter about it...
sign

I was so so sad
tot of not working there anymore
sigh
so i told ter and she said she help me to change the top
is sound so stupid rite..
i was happy and i call my client and she happy..

But deep inside of me i feel i'm such a losser..
it all shit

i think i goin to quit at the end of june
but if i quit then i'm really a looser for good

I dun wan to escape i wanan face it
so i give myself one more month
if it turning out like shit again
i will end my designer faith

then went chalet that night
it fun but juz tat i keep thinking of my work today
tot can share it with mike but he didnt reply me till later hour
i was so sad
so i sms him and ask him why, he said he in the movie.
Couldnt he reply me in the movie?
i know he wanna hold his date hand in the movie, tat why he dun wanna reply me..
guess i expecting too much for him
and he keep sayin he will be there for me..
but where is he when i need him?
Guess it all by myself

so i sms him to tell him i'm angry cos he alway bluff me...

guess i'm alway a losser, in love, friend and work
so wat can i be?

i tot of i can relax myself for the chalet
but it wrong...
i more stress now..

i need some one shoulder to cry on..
but is there anyone out there for me..

i alway tot is mike but guess it wrong
think have to find other but where?
haha
i dun wan to be alone....

i really start to worry wat if i'm really get a proper job and i cannot make it how?
then i really lost myself by then.

so anyone can help?
juz give me a light and i will be glad
i dun wan to follow my heart again
cos it alway wrong